Have you ever felt like you were being tested by the universe?
I do believe in messages from the universe – from our intuition – from within. I believe in signs, that everything happens for a reason. I believe that we are always recieving messages and guidance from the universe but most often we don’t notice the messages until the situation has gotten so bad that the signals are loud. strong, clear and cannot be avoided anymore.
Sometimes things happen that you just have to stay “what?”. Well I have had a bit of that lately.
I pulled some cards today from a deck called “Universal Laws” and one of the cards was “ALLOWING”. Below is just some of what the card says:
“These points of transitions, where the new reality is being birthed into the old reality are often perceived as difficult. Our natural tendancy is to resist that which feels difficult and uncomfortable. The Law of Allowing is reminding you that accepting every minute, even the difficult ones, will make transformation easier and more enjoyable. You will instantly create pressure and tension if you are in any way resistant to what you are experiencing. Allow yourself to move with the natural flow of life. Allowing is only possible when accompanied by the wisdom of trust. Trust that transformation occurs for your highest good and the present conditions are only temporary. Allow your life to evolve and the Universe will bring you the results you desire.”
(I also have a great recipe for you at the bottom of this post).
I started a video series in Mexico called “Clean Body, Clean Mind”. Dealing with having a healthy mind and body and how it is important to work on both. Health is more than just what you eat.
While filming one of the videos – which was hard to find a quiet place - my cell phone dropped on a stone sidewalk and the glass shattered. Wow, I couldn’t believe it! I was so focused on getting the video done and done well. that I didn’t even think “what if the phone fell?” When it did – all I could do was gasp and wonder “how could I be so stupid?!” Well, breathe and let it go, there was nothing I could do. It was done.
Thank goodness I have an iPad so I can film the videos with that. It is just much harder to prop it up to film. Off to find the quiet perfect spot to do this. This is difficult in a small tourist town. But I persevered.
I got the video done and when I went to upload and edit it on my laptop (I have a Macbook Air) MY LAPTOP DIDN’T WORK!, my keyboard and trackpad didn’t work at all. The mouse would not move and I couldn’t open up anything. “What?!” That’s crazy! I had no idea what was going on. Shutting off and turning it back on and nothing. The next day I woke up and it worked. Then it didn’t work. It continued on like this until it stopped working – for good.
AUGH!! What the heack was going on? What was the universe telling me? What was the sign and what message was I supposed to get? I was/am really excited about the mind/body concept as it is so important. I was/am considering offering a program which would include eating healthy as well as developing a healthy mindset and developing the mind/body connection.
When I couldn’t work on my computer I felt just lost! At first I panicked and got really upset. What was I going to do? How was I going to work? How would I finish the video series?! This was crazy and I felt so bad…I had sent a couple videos out to everyone and telling them to expect the next ones and then……this…..
I had to let go. I had to allow things to be what they are. In my 20′s and even 30′s I would have been really upset. I would have worried and fussed and complained to anyone who would listen. But after years of putting myself through that stress and worry even when there was nothing I could do, I knew freaking out and worrying does not change anything. It only makes it worse.
So I allowed myself to feel the frustration, I felt it deeply. I breathed into the disappointment, the feelings of helplessness, the feeling of hopelessness. There was nothing I could do.
Breathe, relax, sink into it and have faith. FAITH that it will all work out. Faith that it has happened for a reason. Still – what the heck reason could it be? I was doing my best, I really was and I was so excited about these videos and I loved doing them! Was I not meant to do this? Was the program I was planning a bad idea?
I began to doubt my ideas, my work and me. It felt so horrible. Maybe I was wrong in thinking people would be interested in these videos. Maybe the computer not working was saving me from myself. After some soul searching and deciding not to give up. I thought – maybe I am just being tested. The universe is testing me to see how dedicated I am about what I want to do.
Here I was doing a video series on how to create your life, to listen to your intuition, to watch and be aware of the signs the universe gives us. Wow! I was being shown this first hand, I was experiencing this to learn. I was being forced to do this – but in a good way – I guess….
OR…..Maybe it was telling me to just relax these last few days in Mexico and just enjoy myself. Well, I tend to feel very guilty especially when I said I would get the videos out to everyone and I couldn’t. What would people think of me?
I was there to work – not just sit around and soak up the sun. How could this happen?!! Again, breathe and let go. Have faith. This is happening for a reason. (Can’t wait to find out what the reason is….
I decided to finish filming the videos in Mexico. One of the videos I had to film in 3 spots as I couldn’t find a spot quiet enough to film a whole video in. The videos are done and they sit on my iPad as I don’t have a computer to edit them with.
I am now back in Nanaimo and have checked in to getting the screen on my iPhone replaced (they are ordering the part). Costing me some bucks but again – let it go and just get it done.
My computer (Macbook Air) is not such a quick fix. My computer needs to be sent away and it will be gone for 2 weeks – YES 2 WEEKS! (I am writing this from my ex-boyfriend’s computer – a PC).
AGAIN – breathe, relax, go with the flow, have faith, it will all be ok. Remember…..I can create my life. I can chose how to view this and what to do with this adversity and situation.
I have asked for answers and searched within a lot. I have wanted to do some recipe books for a while and I did get a message saying – write. I also know I can still work on the program I was planning to do. I can do the writing for it. I may not be able to do the “good looking” videos and editing or other things but there are a lot of things I can do. Maybe I am supposed to focus on slightly different things at this time. If everything happens for the best and for a reason than I must trust that there is a good reason for all of this. I chose to have faith and to be happy and positive and allow things to unfold for the best and as they should.
This 50th year of mine is BIG. A lot of change and letting go is happening. My dad is back in Alberta but not doing too well and I will be going there soon. I am letting go of a relationship I have been in for 8 years. I am letting go of my past life and letting go and giving away a lot of stuff I no longer need or want. My life is evolving and transforming each minute and each day. Things are shifting around me and within me. I can feel it and there is lots of evidence of this. With change comes death and birth as in “out with the old and in with the new”. Things are breaking down and things being lost.
I am chosing to ALLOW (as in the quote above), to have faith, to trust and to LET GO and let things happen as they are supposed to.
Resisting change never makes it better – it only makes it worse. I am ready, I am ready for whatever comes next. I am excited. I have learned and grown a lot. I don’t have to know the end result now. I want to, but I can’t. So I sit in trust and allow.
I know I said that this week it would be a recipe video for you but I have to see if I can edit and publish from my iPad. So today it is a written recipe, one that I created today.
CREAMY DREAMY SAUCE
- 1/4 C raw cashews (soaked for 2 hours, rinsed & drained)
- 1/4 C raw sunflower seeds (soaked for 2 or more hours, rinsed & drained)
- 2 Tbsp chopped yellow bell pepper
- 1/4 clove of garlic
- 1 Tbsp nutritional yeast
- 1 1/2 Tbsp lemon juice
- 1/4 C water
- 1/4 tsp salt
- 1 Tbsp chopped onion
- 1/2 tsp tumeric
- 1/4 tsp paprika
- dash of cayene
SPRING CLEANSE ANYONE?
Since it is Spring (even if it doesn’t feel like it), I do have my 10 Day Clean Eating Cleanse Program for those that haven’t done it already. It is PERFECT to get you back on track, clean up your eating, boost your energy, leave you feeling light and clean and of course improve your skin and you might even lose a few pounds. It is all real food, juices and smoothies. No supplements or anything special or expensive to purchase. It is a fantastic program and you can find out more and sign up by CLICKING HERE: 10 DAY CLEANSE.
LIVE HAPPY & HEALTHY!